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The Last Days

11 Feb

These are the last days. 

The last days I will be a Tour Guide, an Angeleno, a California Girl.

Saying goodbye is hard. It’s bittersweet at best. When you know you are about to leave, it’s like putting on rose colored glasses. Everything is amazing again. It’s fresh, new. Just like it was the day you unpacked your dreams and the Uhaul. 

We still stand by our reasons for leaving Los Angeles behind, but I am thankful for these last days. They have given me the ability to remember all this city has to offer with clear eyes and an open heart. 

We put together an LA Bucket List of all we wanted to do, see, eat, and experience before we said goodbye. I have loved exploring and truly enjoying the beauty of the mountains, the ocean, the thriving and active city. I have found joy in being at work, spending time with my co-workers, sharing the magic of making movies with people from all over the world. I have cherished every moment with my beloved LA family – the laughter, the hugs, even the tears. 

The last days have solidified just how wonderful the past five years have been and how thankful I am for the chapter we are now closing. 

It’s too easy to forget what life can really be. I get caught up in routine, making in through the day, and just living life. We should all get to live like it’s the last days. Seeing more clearly, smiling bigger, loving harder, breathing it all in… 

Here’s to living in the last days. 

And let’s be honest… I’ll always be a California Girl. ❤

Trouble Borrower

6 Jul

My name is Joanna, and I am a worrier.  I mean, I am a serious worrier… like, I could be a professional worrier if people got paid to do that kind of thing.

In all seriousness, I am not proud of it.  It is probably one of my weakest qualities, but there it is.  I worry about the little things, the big things, the far off in the future things, and sometimes even the past things.  I worry because I am a perfectionist. I worry because I like to know everything.  I like to be prepared and ready and in the know.  I worry because I like to be in control.

Lately, I have been worrying about living in a new place, finding a job, money, missing opportunities, and seeing all of my dreams pass me by. Sometimes it gets hard to prioritize because all my little worries are tapping me on the shoulder at once.  It’s exhausting.  And silly.  That’s right… it’s silly.  Worrying is a ridiculous and stupid thing to do.

I worry because it comes to me so easily, but I am done hiding behind the excuses.  I am writing these truths about myself so I can face them, and change them.  I do not want to waste my life being a worrier anymore.  I don’t want to worry myself into forgetting how truly amazing THIS moment is.  Right now.  Life is far too precious to waste stressing about what may or may not happen.  So, my goal is to live my one wild and precious life in the moment.  Worry free.

“I have learned to live each day as it comes. and not to borrow trouble by dreading tomorrow.” — Dorothy Day

“I am an old man and have know a great many troubles, but most of them never happened.” — Mark Twain

“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.  Each day has enough trouble of it’s own.” — Matthew 6:34

“Quit hanging onto the handrails… Let go.  Surrender.  Go for the ride of your life. Do it every day.” — Melody Beattie

My name is Joanna, and I choose to give myself to today.